PEPLUM! [Friday July 31, 1 am] [ mood | anxious ] I call dibs on PEPLUM SKIRTS/ DRESSES making a comeback! Unless they already did hahah They are sooo adorable!! I fell in love with this lemon coloured one in Dorothy Perkins but haven't been able to locate a UK size 8/10 even after visiting 3 branches! Grr. Going to call up some other branches tomorrow and make enquiries. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME HAVE ONE!! In other news: Totally got lost in ION Orchard today. That aside, I feel like it's a truly international mall! I mean Topshop and Fred Perry, Steve Madden and DUNKIN DONUTS all under one house?? You've got both sides of the pond representin' and then some! Woah. Good thing H&M hasn't come to ION or........... I might just have to declare bankruptcy right there on ION's shiny new tiles!

[Thursday July 30, 1 am] [ mood | busy ] CAN'T FREAKING WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!! Because when I'm finally in Syracuse, that means I've successfully dealt with this huge-ass pile of paperwork and errands... and tuition... I'm not quite as annoyed with the latter because How can I be complain about raking in 500 bucks every 1.5 weeks right?? But handling visa applications to various destinations, money transfers, payments, Mum's insurance claims, ETC all by myself is tedious and thankless. Why do they have to be such boringly adult things! And of course, to top it all off, I've got to deal with packing in a bit. Know better than to leave it to the last couple days by now. Sigh. It's always such a whirlwind towards the end.. But I draw strength from knowing that there is an end at least! Also, obviously can't wait to see people from the Cuse again... I've missed a few of them more than they would know ; ) And much more than I had expected too : ) Dead tired, excuse the incoherence please.. In fact I'm kinda sorry yall wasted like 10 seconds of your life reading this rant haha. [Edit] Poop I just realised a couple of the Cuse people I've missed won't be back in the fall! Like Ryan Ford Ah Xiong. :C CHI 300 was my easiest class last sem, yet the least-boring thanks to him. And I wonder if Cru will be any different from now on?

Epic [Sunday May 31, 9 pm] [ mood | happy ] From www.onesentence.org: Tmyakal The fire we started in that corn field was terrible for more reasons than just its failure to produce popcorn.

I specialise in Inconsistent Coherence [Friday May 22, 1 am] Finally found Onitsuka Tiger in Singapore!! But it's sold at exorbitant prices... Well not really, but some of the older models are still 20+SGD more than they cost in the States haha. I really want a pair of Saiko Runner or the Seck MT!!  Mehmehmehmehhhh In other news, it was fun being cheapo and censoring a graffiti with Chers today ; ) Not that we did both simultaneously LAH hahaha Closer to home, I've set up a musing blog. But being busy sucks. Can't believe how blessed I am! Winter Break in London is pretty much very likely a definite Ok Go. And I'm earning some intense pocket $$$ right now Yayyyyyy and Mum's sponsoring (?, well even if she isn't it's really OK) another language course for me! Um and I bought new summer reading: Ogilvy on Advertising Peace and blessings!

dollars =/= cents [Wednesday May 20, 2 pm] VerizonMathless More Verizon Math Fail Hey what this means is that maybe my USD$59 per month phone bill really just costs 59 pennies!

[Monday May 18, 12 am] [ mood | calm ] Undeniable fact of life #1: There will always be grey areas. Everyone's opinions depend on their religious beliefs, personal experiences, social influences, economic circumstance, political inclinations, etc. We can only respectfully agree to disagree most times. That is all. Yup. Oh hey if anyone's having trouble keeping to their daily Bible readings, try reading it in another language! I'm making way more progress reading the New Testament in French than I ever had reading it in English. Also I get more out of it since I'm always having to look up new vocabulary/words disguised by complicated conjugation..  : )

This entry is subject to "fine-tweaking" [Friday May 15, 9 pm] [ mood | annoyed ] If Singapore is as secular as it claims to be... On what basis then, is it rejecting homosexuals their equal status? Hard to believe that one news report can make me so mad. Well, this is my coming out as an Ally. And as of now, here is my stand: 1. God loves everyone without discrimination. If I am a follower of God, I need to aspire to look at everyone with the same love He has for them. 2. Jesus bore everyone's judgment on the cross so that we might have righteousness before God. If I pass judgment on anyone, it negates His work. Hence I should try not to. 3. We are all of us undeniably and irrevocably sinners. Until we have been saved by grace. [Edit-5/16/09] Admittedly, I have not thought hard enough about my exact position on the issue of gay marriage, but I do stand by these beliefs: 1. Marriage as it is, exists only as a social contract. 2. Marriage only becomes a spiritual union if you have committed it into God's hands, if God is in the center of it all. As such, if two Christian homosexuals decide to commit to each other, it's between them and God to work things out. Anyone who passes judgments unto them imposes upon the righteousness that Jesus' blood bought.  Their actions also imply that they do not think God is powerful enough to work in/bless this situation.

Quoi de neuf ? [Thursday May 14, 8 pm] Hi I seem to have a lot to blog about now. Guess it's because once I get home from wherever I've been in the day, there isn't Casey to chat with or Morgen to text/AIM... Missing my friends from Syracuse more than a little!  Something else I've been musing about: Even though such a big deal was made out of my being able to come back home this summer, I find that I can only breathe freely back in the States. And I miss that a lot. Along with blueberry bagels, lightly toasted with cream cheese on one side and grape jelly on the other. And Dunkin' Donuts' iced latte with caramel swirls and whole milk and whipped cream... Don't get me wrong, I'm still really thankful for being able to see my parents and the canoe girls. But other than that, too many memories, my nomad instincts tell me to "go go go" (à la Tim Gunn). I hate this sluggish feeling of being dragged down by emotional burdens that are so inevitably attached to these memories. Let me go. Also, too many restrictions, limitations, conditions, regulations, square boxes, fortresses, rules rules rules, traditions conventions close-mindedness. Stifling. Choking. I can't even perspire, it cannot be natural. Why have I never noticed this before? On the other hand, at least now I know where I'm going after college. Where I want to be. Living in a cosy townhouse in Brooklyn, working in Manhattan... Dreams as yet, but something to work towards none the less : ) +++ Service in Singapore has improved! Even if marginally and inconsistently : ) I got a little gift in my Topshop shopping bag today, along with a card that said "Your Surprise, Our Delight". So sweet! Should be very effective at building consumer loyalty, haha. Did anyone else have the same experience? If not, head to the VivoCity branch and try your luck! +++ Current summer readings: 1. The New Testament en français 2. Watch this, listen up, click here 3. Copywriter's Compendium   4. Streetwise French

Send [Tuesday May 12, 11 pm] I've realised time and time again that no matter how much you play around with words in a bid to try to make everything sound better - more professional, more sensitive, less emotional, more nonchalant, less angry, whatever; you know what I'm talking about, you've done it yourself - in the end, you really just have to drag your mouse over to the Send button, click on it, and pray for the best. With faith that God takes care of everything, all the things I have no power over, all the things I fear...  All the things I fear... I think emotional burden comes out tops. I really don't know why... I just can't handle it? But I think God is bringing me healing in this area. Because this past year at college, He sent me a very special friend to look out for and pray over. It's almost like I was making up for all the lessons in sharing and caring that other people with siblings had but I never did as an only child. I'm still learning though...

Anchored [Tuesday May 12, 1 am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | One Bright Hour by Bebo Norman ] So I didn't get the 4.0 I was after but all things considered I'm actually really happy with the 3.737 : ) My parents are happy too, and might I say they even sounded proud! (Gasp!) I think they could tell how much I've matured since flying half way across the world to meet with a destiny as yet unknown... Funny thing is, the first comment my mum made was about how much I haven't changed, clearly indicating how much she thought I would. But honestly, she needn't have worried. I think with my heart anchored in God, I won't even venture to do any of those things she feared I would (Hahahah, except maybe getting inked.........) Still sucks to get only a A- for ADV though :C Mummy said to see it as a motivation to work even harder in the upcoming courses in my major. I guess I have to agree with that, because knowing myself, I'll get complacent otherwise. Lalala... Oh I'm so grateful for how much God has blessed my family financially! My parents are doing OK, my original bedroom is rented out, I ('m 80% sure I) have a (minimally) paid internship, and 100% sure I'm gonna be tutoring a RI kid in Math (Cue: laughter from everyone who knows me well). Now if I could just recall what "surds" are... abSURD (aspettame this is for you haha)

Ne comprend pas [Tuesday May 5, 12 am] A couple days ago at flamingo football, they rejected a guy who wanted to play with us just because he wasn't one of Cru. I don't understand: wasn't it the perfect outreach opportunity tho? If I were less shy around guys and he were half the size he is, I (hope) I would have tried to witness to him. Also, I've been feeling for sometime that some people at Cru don't even try to love others like God wants us to and it makes me sad. Then LJ reminded me that Christian groups everywhere probably have the same problem. Which made me even more sad but somewhat more motivated to put in practice daily all that I learnt at Big Break. For it is because we ourselves have experienced God's perfect love, that's why all the more we want this to overflow unto others. Don't forget that when Jesus died on the cross, He died for everyone, believer or not, and wanted to bear everyone's judgments upon Himself. Who then, are you to pass judgments unto others? Posted via LiveJournal.app.

Chez où ? [Saturday May 2, 4 am] So I was packing up some stuff that have to be stored here over summer and it hit me that I've accumulated so much! What happened to my nomad instincts? Yknow the one that makes me keep all the boxes from my Amazon orders because I knew I'd need them when I move. That was how I used to think all the time. I had this very strong sense of everything being temporal- definitely why I never formed any lasting attachments to places. Don't think I have a problem with that tho. But I'm scared that this attitude extends to my relationships with people. Am I weird? Am I the only one who sometimes does a mental pause mid-hug, wondering about my own sincerity? Why am I so inherently skeptical of the concept of permanence? (well to be fair, all Christians tend to think our lives on earth are transient...) Is it wrong to never really want to feel like I've settled down... Posted via LiveJournal.app.

L'ancre de mon âme [Tuesday April 28, 1 am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | From the Inside Out, Hillsong ] I can't wait for my new baby to arrive at 401 Van Buren !!!!! Right now it's apparently left Kunshan, China (????!!) et va arriver ici le 30 avril. Je suis très excitée !! Pendant plusieurs jours, j'ai réfléchi à comment je suis toujours "l'auditeur", et n'est jamais "celui qui est entendu". Ça me fait très fatiguée.  And in a moment of weakness, being very upset and finding no other outlet, I ordered myself an iPod Touch. Complete with gift wrappings and gift card, to encourage myself. I truly felt that I deserve it. Having juggled (actually, still juggling) 19 credits, regular work at the dining hall, The Newhouse, Newhouse Ambassador responsibilities, Phi Sigma Pi pledging... Trying to hang on to my own faith while watching a friend lose hers... Donc, nous continuons à battre, comme les bateaux à contre-courant. Mais l'espérance, c'est pour nous comme l'ancre de notre vie, sûre et solide. I've been realising more and more just how imperfect my patience is. If I had my way, Nobody is ever allowed to wallow in self-pity. Everyone should aspire towards having perfect faith. Nobody should ever be hurt or burdened by the words of others. ... and the list goes on. C'est pourquoi je tellement voudrais que tu pourras apprendre à s'appuyer sur notre Dieu, car sa patience est parfait.

Going Greek [Monday February 16, 1 am] [ mood | bouncy ] WOOHOOO I got Phi Sigma Pi's bid!!!!! Yay here's to the Alpha Iota's! : )

The endless fascination with the human condition [Thursday February 12, 1 am] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Lifeboats by Snow Patrol ] "After ending an office romance, a female friend of mine threw a bag full of her former paramour's love letters, cards and poems into an outside dumpster. The following day he called and wanted to know why she would throw out his letters. She was stunned. He explained that a homeless person going through the garbage read the correspondence and called the number found on a piece of stationery. The homeless man was curious as to why two people who seemed so in love could now be apart. "I would have called you sooner," he told the former boyfriend, "but this was the first quarter I was given today." (De Marco, 1994) 2 more chapters left to Social Psych. Then a paper. And RA interview. And the last ΦΣΠ rush event. Dear God bless me with strength tomorrow. I walk in peace because You have conquered all before me. Amen.

[Monday February 2, 9 pm] [ mood | excited ] AHHH Should I rush Phi Sigma Pi?? Hahahaha Sounds very legit and all the people are so nice!  Hmm. K bye. Apparently I have tonnes of French homework. You know what? I might as well minor in French too (-.-)

I've been thinking, [Thursday January 29, 12 am] [ mood | determined ] I should very much like to get inked some time. Just a small one tho, don't worry :D I'm so serious about it that yesternight I spent a full .5 hour researching designs. Have decided that it'll very likely be an anchor cross. The specific design I have in mind is something like this, tho I've made my own modifications... I'm not a particularly rebellious kid but sometimes I get impulses like these. The good thing is I haven't had reason to regret any of my past impulsive actions yet : )  Anyway I think my heart is set. Feels like if I don't do it I'll really regret it when I'm old and feeble and my skin is papery thin or even all skin-cancered out like Hannah warned LOL (TOUCH WOOD) Now it's just a matter of when? Better start carrying the voucher around :P

MercyMe [Tuesday January 27, 9 pm] [ mood | bored ] I've gone and done it. The very thing I've always condemned as stupid. I've gone and paid for music! Oh my word.

[Tuesday January 27, 4 pm] [ mood | angry ] WHATHEFAAGGGGGGGGGGG I HATE DISHONEST PEOPLE WHO DONT RETURN LOST ITEMS BUT INSTEAD GO ON VENDING MACHINE SPREES ON THE POOR LOSER'S EXPENSE!!! All that slaving in the dining hall yesterday only to have more than half of that hard earned money taken away? DEFINITELY NOT HAVING A GOOD DAY BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

Not gonna lie, [Sunday January 18, 1 am] [ mood | contemplative ] some Americans scare me:

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